Photo Challenge: Day 2

Day 2: At the park on the next street over we've been watching both the turtles and the ducks, especially the baby ones. I got this photo because it seemed to carry the heading "But You're So Different". Every day we encounter people that are so different from us. Maybe they look different, or act culturally different, or have an opposite personality from us, or they dress different, or talk different, (you get the idea). We all have pre-conceived notions about those that are different, but do we ever stop and think how we appear to them? Maybe we seem too aggressive, or too loud, or too people-pleasing, or too old-fashioned, or too self-absorbed, etc. If we realize that WE'RE different to most people, maybe we can make a conscious effort to be more friendly, or to help out someone in need, or maybe just pass on a smile to someone who's hurting. Be encouraging to someone who needs it. You never know who's life you may touch for the better.

Photo Challenge: Day 1

Day 1: The tropical hibiscus flower that opened on the plant in my back yard. We've actually gotten about 5 of them since we moved here. They are so short lived. They bud with promise on one day, open fully by the next morning, then by the next day, they're purple and shriveled and fall off the plant. What a glimpse into life. We're here such a short time, too. It flies by before we know it. We have such a short window of time where we can bloom and be vibrant, then it's over. What will YOU do to be vibrant and come alive during your time here on earth? Don't waste it. Shine now while you can. Bring happiness to those around you and you'll be remembered fondly long after you're gone.

Reflecting on 20 years of marriage

Tim & I just celebrated being married 20 years. I spent a lot of the day reflecting on our struggles and our triumphs during that time. I thought of the lowest of lows, and the highest of highs. We've faced everything together and God has kept us protected and blessed just enough to keep us together and dependent on Him. Here's some of our high points in our marriage (for me, anyway):

Our wedding - the day was perfect, not too hot, not too cold, everything went smoothly.
Living in AZ the 1st time - our first 6 months we learned to live together w/o anyone around to tell us what to do.
Having a friend announce the coming of our first born in Canada during a function, from stage, surprising the new would-be grandparents.
The birth of our children - each was unique, Tim was wonderful in the delivery room.
Our first home - it was so inexpensive, the bank made us take out a personal loan rather than a mortgage.
Our first duplex - we lived free since the renters upstairs covered the cost of the mortgage.
Camping at Salisbury Beach, MA, watching the sun rise over the ocean and toasting marshmallows by campfire at night.
Moving to AZ the 2nd time w/our kids - it was like coming "home"
Tim breaking through some lifelong struggles to be free forever.
Utah trip through Zion national park - so beautiful!
Taking the stage together as we advanced in our business, and winning a free suite as the top winners of a contest in Las Vegas.
Tim changing careers to be a flatbed over the road driver. We miss him but it's the start of getting back on our feet, better than before.
Returning to the Valley after 2 years of living in the cold, snowy, too-windy climate of the high elevation, high desert area where everything hurt.
Starting our new adventure together, better than ever, looking forward to another 20+ years together.

Photo Challenge: 30 pictures in 30 days - June 2012

Hi Everyone! I've been thinking...the best way to start scrapbooking again is to make sure I have enough photos. To do that, I'm going to throw something out there. For the month of June, I'm going to take 30 pictures in 30 days. They'll be pictures that depict things in my world. Some may be big like Father's Day, or a special person's birthday. Other pictures will be my world around me...flowers, lizards, palm trees, the neighborhood park, elements of my new home that I love, etc.

If you've hit a rut in picture taking, this may be a good way to get you going again. You could take the challenge too. Maybe that's too aggressive for your schedule? Then agree to take 3 to 5 pictures on the weekends, or something like that.

What pictures should I capture? Any ideas?

Mother's Day Reflections

(Note: Sorry it reads like a big paragraph. I wrote it as bullet points and with spaces for quick reading, but the blog didn't format it the same way.) This Mother's Day is pulling out a whole range of emotions. Maybe it's because my kids are almost all grown, maybe because Tim's been gone for 3 weeks. Maybe because my mother and grandmother are thousands of miles away. Here's some random thoughts, good and bad, that I've been experiencing this week in regards to Mother's Day: The bad: - I wish he'd hurry up and move out, his selfishness is really bothering the other two. - Why is she so whiney! She's going into high school and still acts like she's 10. - What makes him think he knows everything when he's never attended public school, had a job, lived on his own, had a real relationship, or drove a car by himself yet? - It's so hard being a single parent while Tim's gone for so long - it was supposed to be 2 weeks and it'll actually be almost 4 full weeks! - I feel guilty when I know I'm doing or saying the right thing when disciplining my kids. The good: - I'm so proud of him. He's alcohol, smoke, and drug-free as a young man. He makes good decisions and recognizes the mistakes his peers are making. - I know she's almost in high school, but to see her swinging at the park makes me wish she were little all over again. - It's a good thing he's so smart and handy with Tim gone so much. I don't worry about what I'll do if the car breaks down, or I need computer help. - With Tim gone, it gives me a chance to establish a good routine for our family, and begin some new good habits before he gets back. - Stepping back and seeing how great my kids are, I'm glad I was more strict on them than they said their friends' parents have been. It's been a roller coaster of emotion. Mostly because we're all experiencing this move and changes differently. Part of us wants things to go back to how good they were before we moved from here 2 years ago. Part of us is excited to start a new life, with a new circle of friends, and happy that the bad things of the past are just that - in the past. So this Mother's Day, I have many mixed emotions going on, but I know one thing...I have great kids, it's not about flowers, candy, cards or gifts. It's about the relationships I have with each of my children. They're all unique, have their own strengths and weaknesses, are both so alike and so different from me in many ways, and no matter how much time I've spent with them, it still feels like it went too fast. To have one more day with Adam when he was about 5, one more with Logan when he was 3, and one more with Jordan when she was 2...those days are gone, I know, but at least I was there for them, and have great memories (and tons of scrapbooked pages) of those times. I am blessed. Happy Mother's Day.

It's all new and different...

Sometimes we have the opportunity to go back to where we came from, whether it's a town we lived in, a church or group we belonged to, a sport or activity we used to participate in, etc. Often we return expecting things to be like they used to be, but I've learned over the years, that rarely happens. Recently we moved back to the city where we lived 2 years ago. We even got to re-join the church where we'd been members for 7 years before we left. But I had no illusions that things would be the same as they were when we left. In fact, things changed so much just in the 6 months before we left that there's no way it could be "how it was". This economy has really changed the face of our country, even in the higher-end neighborhoods. Friends who were living above the normal standard have lost their homes, stay-at-home wives and moms have had to go to work, people have left the area to live less expensively, and with gas prices rising to almost $4 a gallon for so long, many have had to leave our church and groups because it became "just too far" of a commute. Now our family will be starting over in the city we came from, but it'll be all new. We did return to our church, even though it's 22 miles away. We'll cut expenses somewhere else to afford the 2 trips a week on Sundays and Tuesday morning (for my Ladies' Bible Study). We're in a new area of town, a much better neighborhood, but that means we'll need to make all new friends here. Also, the names on the stores are the same, but they're at different locations now so we'll meet new people that work there too. The church has lots of new faces (and unfortunately, many of the familiar ones are gone). The organizations we belonged to and places we used to frequent aren't going to be the same this time around. The kids are older. Adam's graduated (once he finishes Physics). Logan's 16, has his license, and Jordan's going into high school. I'm not sure the same field trips and homeschool groups would work now. We'll be finding new things we like to do, both individually and as a family. Even our household dynamic has changed. Adam's rarely home to eat dinner with us, both boys are looking for jobs, and Tim's on the road 2 weeks at a time with just 3 days off in-between. It's a new adventure but in familiar surroundings. It's a bit strange, I see the kids struggling to make things like they were, but they can't. Life changes, it goes on while we're doing other things. Two years has changed so much - and I think, so have we. I don't know exactly what's in store for us, but I know we're better prepared and have learned to appreciate what we have a lot more. It's a new adventure for sure. I'm looking forward to seeing what God's got in store for us with the new lessons we've learned.

The New Place is getting even better!!!

So here's a picture of our new place, but wait! Just when I couldn't think it could be any better, it does!

I got a call and a few messages from my friend who owns the house. Here's the gist of what we were told:

1. Since her husband and his regular contractors are all available to work for the next few weeks, they're going to totally remodel/renovate the home!

2. The master bath was pretty sad, so that's getting a total remodel.

3. The kitchen is in need of updating so it's all been ripped out, the ceilings raised, there'll be new, taller cabinets, new countertops, probably an L-shaped kitchen installed instead of the U-shape it was, and possibly even an island added!

4. Because the flooring is all mismatched and some looks bad from where carpets were ripped up, new tile is going in and all the cement floors (which we've always wanted) will stay, but be painted.

5. The funky island colors will all be painted a nice, neutral beige kind of color.

6. As if that's not enough - they even decided to bring in a landscaping company to clean the yard up before we get there.

7. Best news yet? - It's all scheduled to be completed, ready for us to move in, the Friday before the week we've rented our moving truck!

I'm just so grateful, thankful, and appreciative of such blessings. I consider it an honor to be trusted to care for their (now like-new) home for the next year or so. After that, we're hoping to buy and they're hoping to rent it for what it's worth, which will be so much more with all the work they're doing. I am truly blessed by God, through wonderful friends.

We found a home! An even BETTER home!

Normally, I keep my faith opinions & comments on my other blog, but I can't share this story without giving God full credit, so just bear with me, it's a great story!
I planned on checking out the apartment from my last post at 1 o'clock Tues. afternoon. Being in a hotel about an hour away, my plans were to leave the hotel no earlier than noontime, then run a few errands on the other side of town. That morning I couldn't stay put. I felt like I just had to get out of the hotel and head over towards the apartments. Maybe I'd stop into a few of the places on my list before the appointment instead of after? Anyway, I had to go.

That morning, my Facebook post was simple. Just that I was going to look at a place, wish me luck. I get a call from a friend I haven't talked to in 2 years. She's rarely on FB these days, but happen to be home recovering from surgery and was on there, and happened to see my post. She let me know she had a place for rent (since when did her family own rentals?) and it was becoming available in a matter of days. She called me during my drive but for some reason, I didn't hear my phone ring at that time. Instead, something made me take out my phone at a red light and see that I had a call from about 15 minutes earlier.

I called her and she mentioned a house, not a second floor, 1000 sf apartment, but a house for rent. I asked her where it was and she said it was off THE VERY STREET I WAS DRIVING BY!!! I couldn't missed her call. I could've called her back earlier or later. But the timing was absolutely perfect - that's how I know it had to be God's timing & plan and not my own. I've learned to pay attention to these things over the years.

Anyway, she and her husband were kind enough to allow us to move in for what we were going to pay for the apartment, which has to be anywhere from $200 - $600 below market value, depending on if they did work on it or not. In exchange, we'd move in with the understanding that it's "as is" and has some minor cosmetic issues - like funky paint colors, a few rugs that were removed but cement was never finished or painted, etc.

The house is perfect for us! It's only 2 to 3 blocks from everything and everywhere we need to be. It's got over 1600 sf. The Master has it's own bathroom, there's a good sized yard for entertaining and some beginning gardening space. It's at the end of a cul de sac. What more could we ask for?

Here's the best part - had I gone into the apartment interview without knowing about the house, I would've been devastated. It was the last place we could afford without being 30 miles from church in a very bad west-side neighborhood. I went in and within 5 minutes, they'd told me they had no 3 bedrooms in their mile-long complex and there was already a waiting list for them. We wouldn't have been able to move for another 6 to 12 months, if there at all. I would've spent the rest of the week compromising our family's safety and taking a place we hated, that was way too small, miserable. Instead, God gave me the confidence that it would all work out with the house, so when she said they had no vacancies, I smiled, got up, and left thinking, "it's okay because I don't want to live here anymore."

Life can be so good.

Finding a home

Here I am, bright and early on a Monday morning, ready to look for a new home for our family this week. Granted, the reason I'm up early is because I'm in the lobby of the hotel that messed up and I'm here waiting for their next available room to open up.

Anyway, on to better things...there's a place we hope to qualify for - it's a 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom apartment, in a complex that a lot nicer than where we used to be. It's got lots of grass, palm trees, 4 pools (2 heated), basketball courts, street hockey rinks, playgrounds, free bikes to borrow from the office, a fitness center, a beautiful clubhouse, and it's in a very convenient location for everything we could ever need.

So why am I still in the process of "finding" a home? Because we're not sure we'll qualify yet. My husband has just switched careers, he's in orientation & training for the next 3 1/2 weeks - then he'll be a solo truck driver. The pay is promising to be enough to qualify, but we had to declare bankruptcy and lost our home in a foreclosure 2 years ago. We're not sure if that will disqualify us or not. We also don't know if they'll need months of paystubs first, or accept the first few to see what a typical workweek pays.

Should we not get into this place, we have no real backup. That's why I'm here. By the time I leave in a few days, I'll know better where we stand, if I have to look for a new place or not, and I should have a better idea of when we should be able to plan our move.

We can also house-sit for friends here in mid-June for about a month at no cost - so if our move is delayed longer than we originally planned, that'll be okay because we'll still have a mini vacation to break up the tension.

Wish me luck this week!

Why I like the middle of the night...

5 Things I like about the middle of the night (when Tim's away):

1. I can get up, turn on my laptop, and have time to myself on the internet without interruptions. When Tim's home, I'd never dream of disturbing his sleep with the clicking away of the keyboard, but when I'm alone, every click sounds like a step forward, or an accomplishment. I'm actually getting things done without distractions.

2. The stars. I know in a few months I'll be moved back to the city (yeah!) and I won't be able to see anything but the brightest stars because of the light pollution, but you know what? In the two years we've lived here, it's almost always too cold or too windy to be out at night enjoying them anyway. With that said, there have been a few nights that I woke up between 2 and about 4 a.m. and was absolutely blown away at the number of stars in the sky here. I never gave any thought to the Old Testament when God tells Abraham that he'll have as many descendants as there are stars...until being out here. I saw literally millions of stars and though, "Wow. Seeing a sky like this, Abraham must've been totally blown away by that statement!"

3. The silence. I've never been big on noise. Maybe it's because I grew up in a loud house, with a loud family, and loud eventually led to an argument, then a fight. I also grew up as one of the older cousins and the oldest of my siblings, so I grew up treasuring peace and quiet. My happiest moments (before being married and having kids) were times when I was alone to enjoy the beach, a flower, a sunset, etc.

4. My head has a chance to clear up and "reboot". During the day, my head is constantly buzzing with things to do, things to plan, kids' demands, schedules, information to teach, and about a hundred other things. In the middle of the night, my head is clearer, fewer distractions, I can think out a complete thought, examine different possibilities, see new perspectives, and appreciate all I have to be thankful for.

5. Going back to sleep. I know that sounds strange, but there's something very satisfying knowing I'm going back to sleep with a problem solved, or after a relaxing time for just me, or with a song in my head, or even a prayer on my heart. It's a very peaceful, restful sleep once I fall back asleep. I wake up refreshed and relaxed and can ease into my day without things undone from the day before hanging over me. Those are the best mornings.

Zumba - the best addiction I've ever had!

I've had different addictions in the past, things I woke up thinking about, thought about all day, and obsessed over before bed - everything from drinking in my early 20s, to sugar in my 30s, to organics & coupons in the last few years - but this is the best one yet! Zumba Fitness! If you aren't familiar with Zumba, it's a dance & fitness program based on rhythms from all around the world (mostly Latino), combined with the mechanics of exercise. What you get is a fun, confidence-building, super-fat-burning workout that makes you want to do it again and again.

I started doing Zumba because I know it's huge all over the U.S., people love it, and those who I know that are involved have some of the healthiest, most sculpted body images, without crazy dieting, situps & pushups, nor heavy weight lifting. Not having the money right now to go out and buy a program, I started in my room with just my laptop and YouTube videos. I searched the basic and how-to videos to get started. I never felt so "white" and uncoordinated in all my life. I could sort of figure out what they were instructing me to do until they took it "to tempo". I watched in amazement thinking, "I don't think I'll ever be able to move as fast as they do, but if I do it half as quick, I'll still burn calories, right?"

After the first few times, I got the hang of it. I was moving more like they were, getting in 7 steps to their 8, quite an accomplishment for me. I was still awkward, but at least I was doing it, not hating it, and was starting to have fun.

After a couple of weeks, I was moving as fast as they were for most of it. I wasn't remembering to "keep my abs tight" through the whole workout, but my stalled weight loss was beginning to drop again. I was starting to believe I may have found something special in Zumba for me.

Now, it's been about a month since I started, but thanks to Tim's unusual schedule of CDL school 200 miles away, and working 3rd shift when he's home, I have our room to myself every single night to work on getting better (in private). Last night was the 12th night in a row and it's become an obsession...no, an addiction!

I wake up with the music in my head. Every time I walk or turn to do something in the house, I'm thinking about where my hips are, and if my core & abs are engaged. I keep moving my workout earlier and earlier by a few minutes because I can't wait to do it. I'm feeling that I'm using the right muscles as I work out. The steps are getting to where I don't have to think about it. I'm adding my own "flavor" as they call it in the videos. I'm dropping weight quickly. I'm happier, and eating less (since eating was very emotional for most of my life). I'm losing inches. I even have a renewed desire to learn to speak Spanish more than ever before.

The best part of Zumba for me is the mind transformation. I had so many doubts in the beginning, but now what I say in my head has changed. I'm twice as old as those on the video, doing this at 6300 feet elevation, and overweight to start - but I can do this! I really CAN move my body as fast as they do. My legs DO move as quick as theirs. I WILL hit every weight goal I set because I'm determined to keep at it.

I'm down 18 lbs in 60 days and have lost a few inches already! (Wish I measured those when I first got started). I'm healthy, happy, and love doing Zumba. Check out some of their online information and get started.

Hopefully, for my birthday, I'll get the first 4 DVD set until I can buy the newer 7 DVD program. Have fun!

10 Things I love about "the Valley of the Sun"

1. Palm trees (and other Phoenix area flowers)

I grew up in a family where everyone had gardens, fruit trees, and lots of flowers. I thought I knew more flowers than anyone else my age growing up, but when I moved to AZ in 2003, I saw hundreds of flowers & plants I'd never seen before. The colors, shapes, and oh, the palm trees I saw! I love lying by the pool on a hot day with a gently breeze blowing through the palm leaves making that distinct, crisp sound. There's nothing more soothing to me than watching palm trees blowing gently in the breeze.

2. Warm winters

After spending a lifetime hating the cold, days of rain, gray skies, and long, snowy winters of freezing temperatures - we finally moved to AZ. I enjoyed 7 years of warm winters. Almost 2 years ago, we were forced to live in the high desert, at high elevation, where it's cold and snowy and the winters are very long. I never realized how bad rheumatoid arthritis could hurt until I moved here. Now, I get to spend the next 4 winters in the Phoenix area again where it's warm. I know my time is limited there, so I'm going to take advantage of every single day there, appreciating it and being "one with my environment" until the very last day we're there. After that, we'll have to move back to the elevation & mountains & snowy, cold winters - but we'll at least be closer to town.

3. Swimming almost year-round

Last year for spring break we spent a week in the Valley in mid-March. My happiest memory was stepping into the pool and immediately being able to get right in because the water was so warm (and yes, it was unheated). Swimming from March until October/November is definitely something we miss.

4. Stores!

I'm not a shopper, really, but I know how to save money given the resources available. I've done a good job this year learning how to save as much as possible with only a handful of possible stores to shop from. I really look forward to using those skills when I have so many choices, Goodwill thrift stores, discount outlets, etc. I think I can double our standard of living for half what I'm spending now to live broke.

5. FRUIT

Up here, it's so cold and windy that no one can really grow fruit. The produce selection in the store is mainly apples, oranges & bananas. I can't wait to shop where local, organic fruits can be grown year-round. I miss the variety of tropical fruits available in Valley. It's no fun eating frozen fruit almost exclusively just to get a variety.

6. Organic vegetables

There's lots of people with gardens up here, but you find that if someone gives you some of what they've grown, it's usually the same thing you've got from your own garden - and you have more than you know what to do with already. Seriously, after you can the first 150 jars of pickles, how many more do you really need? I'm looking forward to the variety of INEXPENSIVE organic veggies I can buy for cheap money at places like Sprouts market.

7. Mountain Valley Church

I've gone to several churches in my lifetime, but MVC will always be "home" to me. When I come to the city, and walk through their front doors, I feel like I just walked through Grandma's house or something. I feel safe, loved, protected, and it's where people know the real me. That's the church where I truly had life-changing experiences with the one and only Holy God. It's where I learned to make my faith personal, and the center of everything I do. It's also home to my dearest and most-loved friends who have been through everything with me and my family.

8. My best friends

People are lucky to have 1 or 2 really close friends that you can trust, open up to, spend time with and "do life right" with. At MVC, I found dozens and dozens of friends for life. I can't wait to return to them. They've helped me learn, grow, be strong, let out a good cry, pray with and for our family, and so much more. I've missed them terribly and can't wait to come "home".

9. Activities for the kids

The Concho brochure (metaphorically) didn't tell the truth. I was told before moving here that it would be great: short winters, high temperatures in the 50s & 60s even in winter, sun almost every day, lots of space, pretty views, great wildlife all around, clean water, and friendly people. What I found was quite the opposite: long winters where the sun never hits the back of the house for 6 months a year, many days where the highs are in the 30s, lots of gray skies, so much space that you can't find friends for the kids because nothing is walking distance, lots of views...of dead, brown and yellow waist-high weeds all around and dead trees at least half the year, the wildlife here is snakes, huge beetles, rats & mice, and yes, there's deer or antelope but that's maybe 2 or 3 times a year you see that. Elk? sure, we have those, mostly when they come out near the road when you're driving at night for 30 miles to get home from town! And as for friendly people...most are retired or older, and the ONLY thing they talk about is the end of the world and how much they hate the city, and it's residents, and it's every man for himself when everything goes crazy. No one told us we were moving to the Meth capital and Polygamist capitol of the state! They left that out. When we move, our kids will have everything from sports, to art, to cultural events, to free events, classes for homeschoolers, lots of groups to join, church activities to do, and so much more. I can't count down the day fast enough.

10. Being near the airport & attractions

When we lived in the city, we were 7 minutes from the Southwest terminal. We had more friends & relatives visit from the east coast than I ever imagined we would. I even had visits from family I hadn't seen in 15 years! Once we moved to the middle of nowhere, not one friend or family member was willing to fly in to Phoenix, drive the 4 hours to here, just to sit at the house with nowhere to go and nothing to do. We don't even have television here. I've already been told some will come back when we're back in the city again.

So yeah, there's a lot of up-sides to moving back. I'll miss Tim's parents being close by, but other than that, I won't miss Concho one bit. We've met some wonderful, friendly people at our church in Show Low, and I'll stay in touch with them until we return in 4 years - but again, I won't miss anything else up here.

I'm so excited to move!

February Goals

Here's my list of 5 goals for February:

1. I've lost 14.9 pounds so far, I'm hoping to hit the 20 pound (loss) goal by the end of the month.

2. I'm hoping to find great deals on stuff for the boys' birthdays. Logan's was pretty inexpensive for what we got and he'll like them (can't share what they are just yet). Trying to find either a futon, a NICE tv stand/ent. center, or housewares for Adam (for when he gets his own place soon).

3. I really should get through the end of chapter 2 in my Genesis study, but I've struggled to find time to work on it. Between school, moving 200 miles away in a few months, hubby working nights and sleeping days, and in a few weeks, he'll be back in school for a month to change careers where he'll be gone for days at a time for a few months. Oh yeah, and I'm the Secretary for the Board of Directors for our local Farmer's Market so I've been busy rewriting contracts, applications, policy changes, procedures, and fee structures.

4. I hope to get Jan & Feb of 2011 scrapbooked, but I'm not sure about that one.

5. I'll continue to cook healthier meals for my family. I was very successful doing that in January, but the food costs more than cheaper, processed food choices, do our pantry, freezer, and cupboards are pretty bare right now. Hopefully I can build up a little here and there this month if I find great deals on frozen veggies, canned or dried beans, meats, etc.

What are you hoping to get done in February?

Top 10 Things to do in January

I find that the best way to get motivated to do something I don't really want to do, is to announce to the world I'm going to do it. With my integrity now on the line, I'll get it done no matter what. So here's my Top 10 Things to get done in January.

1. Finish scrapbooking all the pictures from the first half of 2010. I was doing great until I joined the local farmer's market. Then I was baking 2 days a week, selling one day a week, and shopping for ingredients 1 to 2 days a week. That plus homeschooling the kids left me with no time to scrapbook. I also ran out of supplies necessary to do it. I got some things for Christmas, and aside from needing photo paper and sticky squares, I should be able to finish the first half of 2010 by the end of this month.

2. Lose 10 pounds. I've lost 6 so far, but 10 was on my January 1st goals list. If I hit that before the end of the month, I'll re-adjust the goal at that time. I'm doing it eating no grains and no sugar for 4 weeks. More on where I'll go from there on my Top 10 February list.

3. I will write at least the 1st chapter of Genesis in the bible study ebook I'm trying to do this year. I know I'll have to do much more than a chapter a month to finish anytime in the near future, but the first is the hardest because it's setting the format - after that you just repeat the pattern with new information.

4. I will go on a date with Tim. When we renewed our vows in early October, we got good at having a weekly date. With the holidays, and his reduced hours at work, money's been tight and dates were put off for a while. We still don't have extra for a nice dinner out or a movie for two, but we can go for a motorcycle or 4-wheeler ride on the warmer days, or drive into town to check out what's new at the thrift store.

5. I will talk to people all month and try to set up either another class to teach on how to use coupons effectively and easily - or else find someone to sign up for Kara's site: . I'm trying to help others learn to save money on groceries. They need this information and I want to bring it to them as close to free as possible.

6. I will cook healthier versions of regular foods for my family this month. I will not be buying the cheaper, less-healthy foods with chemicals, artificial food colorings and flavorings, an abundance of sugars, nor unhealthy white, processed wheat. I'll be buying more fruits, vegetables, whole grains and organic items.

7. I will be sure to exercise 12 times this month. That's 3 times a week, although I may do less one week and more the next. It's more than I would've done without it being on my list of goals.

8. I will make the calls on weekends I've been too busy to make time for. I hate the phone, maybe it comes from telemarketing jobs I've had, but I hate talking on the phone. Maybe I just hate sitting still that long, or not being able to multitask (since I try to be a good listener when I am on the phone). Anyway, I'll make the calls I've been putting off - there's about 5 of them.

9. I will finish the bible study we started before Christmas. I will complete the Lineage of Grace Series before switching days and taking a break from Wed. nights. The boys both want to be involved in Feeding the Hungry at our church. That's on Tues. & Thurs. Bible study is on Wed. My bible study has prevented them from being able to serve, since we can't make another 65 mile trip each week, so I will finish the study I'm in, then switch our shopping/errand day to Tuesdays to allow them to volunteer. That also gives me 7 days instead of 1 to pull all my coupons together before shopping.

10. I will not be too busy to make time to do fun things with the kids. It may be simply watching something on Netflix online together, or taking a walk on a warm day, or playing a board game - but I will make time for it.

Optimism abounds

I feel great about 2012. It seems that everywhere I look, people are optimistic about what this year may hold. After the past 2 to 3 years of so much pessimism, heartbreak, and lost opportunities - it's time for some hope, courage, strength, optimism, and focus. Time to shed the past, forget the mistakes, learn from them, and make better decisions as we move forward. Just like there's Resolutions people make to do things, here's a brief list of a few Resolutions that we should all take to heart, but it's a list of things NOT to do:

1. Don't listen to the critical, negative talk in our own heads. Nothing good can possibly come from that. What we think on, we become. Instead, we need to think different if we want our lives to be different.

2. Quit eating things that we know are killing us. We know white sugar, white flour, artificial flavors and colors, high fructose corn syrup, and other chemicals are not good for us. There's enough research results out there to prove our usual foods are barely "food" at all. Instead, we should focus on trying to live longer and healthier lives by eating more natural, healthy and organic foods whenever we can. At the very least, we should add more fruits and vegetables to our diet and cut out the sugars and artificial sweeteners. Did you know they have more in common to pesticides than food? Time to make conscious changes.

3. Stop wasting our resources. I'm not talking about the whole green planet thing. I'm talking about learning from mistakes of the past. So many people in America got into debt over their heads from using credit cards unwisely, buying more home and/or car than they could truly afford, and other such errors. It's not wrong to have nice things - if you can pay for them. Going into debt just to keep up with others is just plain dumb, and too many of us fell into that trap. Some of us were wise with our money, but jobs were taken away, companies closed their doors, and we were taken by surprise. What can we do differently next time? SAVE! I've never heard a good financial planner who didn't suggest paying yourself first, put money into savings BEFORE you pay other bills. If you don't do it then, you never will. When another storm comes, you'll once again be caught without the resources to get through it.

4. Family and friends have to stop taking a back seat to everything else. The generation behind mine saw so many kids who's parents were so absorbed in TV that they neglected to properly raise hard-working, respectful children. Then there's the crowd of workaholics. They hide in their work because it's where they get their self-worth. Carving out one night a week, or a few hours on a weekend, will that really bring them to the brink of bankruptcy? They act like it. If it does, then they aren't very good at their job, are they? Time to prioritize. People are more important that we realize, especially our family - they won't be around forever. Once they're gone, it's too late for a do-over. Appreciate them now.

5. And finally, this year, let's not worry about things we can't change. Let's just focus on those things we CAN change.

May 2012 bring you wisdom, creativity, good health, wealth, fun, loving relationships, and peace.

Happy New Year - 2012!!!

Happy New Year! And it really is, because 2011 was such a disappointment. We went months without any kind of steady income, Tim's job with the company he was starting with his father fell apart when they discovered support and stability wasn't backing the software platform. Then there's the hope of buying or renting a place of our own that fell through. My Grandmother passed away in the fall, and we seem to have more snow than usual here for December - we've already burned through half the winter's wood in just over a month and a half!

Okay, now that that's out of my system, here's the blessings of 2011 - the ones I remember at the moment, anyway...Tim got a job and it pays more than minimum wage. I got a laptop for Christmas. I got to spend Spring Break in the valley with the kids for a whole week in March. I made new friends at church and through the Concho Farmer's Market. I made hundreds of dollars selling scones, lemon/lime curd, and dessert platters. I paid cash for Christmas and got the kids what they wanted. This was the first year in so many years that Adam appreciated what he got, participated in the Christmas festivities, and admitted this year was better than last year. I was able to buy a pair of glasses to fix my left eye vision problems. Adam found a job as 2011 was just getting started, and although he ended up quitting and hating it - it paid him thousands for stuff he wanted and his share of the bills, and made him feel better about himself and his surroundings. Adam got his license this year - a HUGE help to me and freedom for him. Logan got his permit this year. I learned how to save lots of money with coupons and in turn, teach others to do the same and it's making a real difference in their lives. My faith is on the grow again, FINALLY! Tim and I both want the same things for 2012 (to move, for him to get his CDL). Jordan's schooling getting better and better. I'm back in touch with my cousin Tracy and my aunt Jane again.I can scrapbook through the winter with just a few minor purchases. We're affording our Monavie every month, so keeping the RA/arthritis and migraines to a minimum. Tim & I renewed our vows at the Festival of Marriage weekend in Glorieta, NM. So although there were many disappointments and lots of stress - there was also much to be thankful for.

As we head into 2012, here's a few Resolutions I can share publicly:

1. I'm going to rewrite my Genesis bible study into a format I can sell.
2. Once we decide where we're moving, probably Show Low (Tim's not thinking Payson nor the Valley right now, but only God knows what's ahead), we'll either join FBCSL as members, or find a new church in Payson, or return to MVC in Scottsdale - depending where the trucking job leads (or whatever else God may have planned for Tim through WalMart).
3. I will be teaching coupon classes all year - and getting my out-of-state Couponing Info website out there for customers to sign up.
4. I'll finish scrapbooking all of 2011.
5. I'll be spending January following the Maker's Diet - organic, healthy, natural foods only. Last year I did it for 90 days and looked and felt great.

Have a great New Year's. Stay safe.

Almost 2012!

It's been quite a while since I've been on here. Mostly because our computer died on Thanksgiving and we can't replace it yet. For Christmas Tim tried to buy me a laptop at his work, but they're sold out temporarily with no idea when they'll be back in, just that it'll be "soon". He paid for it and got me the gift card for it, but I still have to just wait.

Christmas was pretty good this year. We chose to do everything in the late afternoon/early evening since everyone's working weird shifts lately. We had a great dinner with the 7 of us, beef roast, potatoes, gravy, veggies, garlic cheddar biscuits, coconut cream pie, pecan pie, and peppermint stick ice cream!

I got a bunch of scrapbooking stuff from Mom (exactly what I was thinking I wanted), the gift card for the laptop, and Adam got me a nice light up angel decoration. The kids got clothes, money, gift cards, soft blankets and more. Tim asked for movies (live-action superhero ones) so we got him 8 of them! That should keep us busy while we wait for the computer and order Netflix.

Although it's snowed a lot already this winter and has been very cold, including below zero nights, the past 2 days have been warm and sunny. That's important for me to get through these cold winters again. I do miss palm trees and warm winters more than anything!

Adam took his first solo trip to the Valley during vacation. He drove the 200 miles down, will stay for 2 weeks, then drive home again. I made him promise me he wouldn't go anywhere New Year's Eve unless it's with his friend Tim's whole family. Other than that, he'll make good decisions, so I hope he has a great time.

Hopefully, the computer will come in soon and I'll be back on here more regularly, but for now, the library countdown is ticking so I have to go.

Thanksgiving Day

Today is thanksgiving. Mom & Dad are on the east coast, we have no friends or family that live near us, so I guess it's just the 5 of us again. Could be worse, it could just be the 4 of us. With Tim working at WalMart these days, he easily could've ended up working today - so I'm happy he's home today. He won't have to do a ridiculous Black Friday shift either. He won't go in til 10pm after the madness is over, the shelves are depleted, and hopefully, that should make his new inventory go up faster.

We're staying very traditional this year. I'm roasting a turkey, making homemade stuffing from scratch, mashed potatoes, gravy, green bean casserole, and since the kids never had them, I bought King's Hawaiian sweet rolls instead of making my usual garlic cheddar biscuits. For dessert, I made a simple pumpkin pie and pudding pie with Jordan. We had some phyllo cups left over from a previous event so we filled those with pudding too. Maybe we'll put those out at noon with veggie sticks, crackers, cheese and dip.

We'll eat around 3 or so, plenty of time to work off what we eat - though I don't remember ever going back for seconds on Thanksgiving - just not my thing. I wish we had football to watch - I hate TV so I almost never miss it - except Thanksgiving, and NFL playoffs, and of course the SuperBowl.

My family isn't big on sharing things to be thankful for, so instead of being disappointed when my expectations for family bonding doesn't happen, I'll just go into today unexpecting. Just being with my family will be enough. This may be our last Thanksgiving with Adam for a while, since he wants to move to the valley as soon as possible. I'll just enjoy today with a casual, relaxing plan of having no set plans.

Maybe, if I get lucky, we'll have a few games of darts, ping pong, or find a movie we can watch together - minus Adam - he'll come out to eat, then go back to his room, but that's okay. That's how he likes it, that's always been his personality. I don't get frustrated because I can't change people to do what I want or be like I want them to be.

It'll be a good day today.

Fall 2011

Logan went to his first dance, Homecoming at St.John's high with his friend, Justine King.

Halloween night Jordan dressed up as a gypsy (at the last minute) to pass out candy. We only had 14 kids total this year.

We had a Prairie Hawk on the back deck yesterday morning - they're so beautiful.

My "Babci", (grandmother in Polish) passed away in October. I have lots of great memories with her. She'll be sadly missed.

Not many pictures in October - been really busy with the couponing site and stuff for about 3 months. Hopefully my Winter 2011 pictures will be more interesting, and there'll be more stories to tell.

New Coupon Site

I miss having this blog for family and personal stuff that I don't want to necessarily share on Facebook, so I created a place for all my coupons info. to be shared, to teach others to save tons off their grocery bills, and share deals. It's kept private, and for a one-time signup of just $15 (introductory price for the rest of 2011), you get a private invitation to view it and use it yourself! After 2011, the price will go to just $20, with no renewal fees. I plan on improving the site on-going to include links to coupons, member testimonies of savings, great deals, hard-to-find coupons, and more. If you're interested, just get in touch with me and let me know you want an invitation. You can mail me a check and I'll grant you access to the account.

From here on in, posts will not be about coupons.